SOCIOPATH-THE LESSON OF MY LIFE

sociopath..

i have attracted these people all my life. it wasnt until i had been discarded by the love of my life, or the one i thought was, that i typed into my computer one night….warnings of online dating. i had met him here on the internet. there i saw the words in huge red letters on my screen, SOCIOPATH. my stomach did a flip and i threw up, i knew from that second on what had been happening in my life. i didnt know much about sociopaths but it took me back to when i was divorcing my first husband for cheating and lying and my mother had said to me, you understand he is a sociopath? this was before the internet and looking things up online. obviously then i didn’t understand what she met and history would repeat itself. i was in so much emotional pain i thought i was going to die. i needed to understand why this was happening to me. i became obsessed with researching the subject. the more i read the more i understood. this was a life altering moment in my life. there is no rule book we are given as young adults to learn about sociopaths or narcissism. this isn’t a topic they teach you about in school, although it should be. i spent a year in an online support group trying to unravel what had happened to me. i am so eternally great full for those people. they didn’t put me down for who i was they built me up for who i could be. all the damage that was done to me they helped me unravel. i started a small support group there and decided to move it to Facebook. its been three years and since he left and in less than one year i have over 2,500 members in this group for survivors. i am no expert just a girl who has been there. someone who cares about others despite what was done to me. what a gift Ive been given to watch others go from battered to healing. i can now pay it forward to others who are walking the same path as me and who have been down the dark road of sociopathy. if you have asked yourself why me and why is this happening to me just know its a secret gift from the universe to wake you up to the reality of who you are and who you need to become so this never happens to you again. if you don’t quiet yourself enough to listen to what the message is you will be sure to continue the abuse that comes from loving a sociopath. #stopthecycleofsociopathabuse

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